Barbara Bagley - Stage I Non-Small Cell Lung Cancer
I have always been fit as a fiddle! Other than the normal flu or virus, I have been as healthy as the next person. That is until I hit middle age. I was a smoker, over 40 years, and my smoking began taking its toll. I suffered an acute bout of bronchitis. However, I recovered quickly and spent only 2 days in the hospital. I continued to smoke! Thirteen years after my initial bout of bronchitis I again suffered with it. Only this time I was required to stay in the hospital for one week. When you constantly wheeze, have no energy, and have trouble breathing, you don't need to be a rocket scientist to realize, "It's time to quit smoking!". This time I did quit. Along with other tests, x-rays were taken of my lungs and according to two doctors, I had dodged the bullet and was cancer free. Hearing this was such a relief that my legs went weak. I said a prayer of thanksgiving and made a commitment to myself to make some significant changes in my life. I committed to living a more healthy life-style in regards to diet, exercise, nutritional supplementation and of course, proudly becoming a non-smoker. As a result, I began to feel like a million dollars, both physically and mentally. Coupled with this was a wonderful sense of well being. I had my life under control. Wrong! I honestly couldn't put my finger on a particular problem. All I knew was I didn't feel 100%. I attributed it to having had gum surgery in November and that my system wasn't back to normal. I also had a vertebrae out of whack, due to golfing, and I thought this could be another cause. I sincerely didn't know what was wrong, I just knew something wasn't normal. I came home one afternoon, after seeing my chiropractor for the vertebrae problem, and coughed up blood. When I look back now, I consider this event a blessing. Thus began many doctor appointments, tests, waiting for results, more tests, more waiting. My emotions, and those of my husband, Tom, were absolutely ragged. The waiting ended and the tests confirmed that I had stage 1 non small cell lung cancer. The week following my diagnosis is a blur. I would have severe panic attacks that were calmed only with back rubs from Tom. The difficult job of telling our respective families was left up to Tom, plus most of the decision making. I was numb. I had lost my twin sister to colon cancer two years earlier and all I could think of was, "I don't want to die!" Looking back however, I am grateful, and consider the "coughing up blood episode", as a blessing. Had this not occurred there is a good possibility I would not have gone to the doctor, resulting in a late diagnosis which could have been disastrous. Tom and I knew it was imperative to get a second opinion. Having two doctors mistakenly report I was cancer free dictated this decision. We were directed, through prayer and investigation to MD Anderson in Houston, Texas. [Editor's Note: MD Anderson is one of the top cancer hospitals in the world] This started another battery of tests, more waiting, more anxiety ,and then it would start all over again. Thank God it did. My doctor was young, intelligent, and a pro in his field. He had me checked from head to foot. When I got through I knew I was in expert hands. Surgery was scheduled. My tumor was in the upper quadrant of my right lung where the bronchial tubes begin branching off. Not an optimum location. Under the tumor was the main artery that feeds the lung, plus two lymph glands. All tests had come out in my favor, but testing to see if the cancer had invaded these two areas couldn't be done until after surgery. That meant more waiting, and for those of you that have been through this, you know the waiting can be excruciating. Surgery was performed. The upper right lobe was removed, the tumor was removed, as well as part of a rib. I did so well I was not required to go into ICU. I was up and walking the second day. The third day I had mega-company and greeted them with full make-up on. On the fourth day the final test results came in regarding the lymph glands and artery; they were negative. I can't even begin to tell you the joy I felt. To have had so many tests, and to have them all come back in my favor was truly a blessing from God. More good news, I was told I would not be required to have either chemo or radiation. Knowing how debilitating these drugs are, you can imagine that my joy, with this news, was overwhelming. I was released from MD Anderson hospital one week after surgery. Tom and I stayed with family in Houston for three days and then headed home to San Antonio. Recovery after intensive surgery is tough. You hurt, you're weak, food doesn't taste good, you can't sleep, in general you're depressed - it's the pits. But I was blessed with a dear friend, who for one month literally moved in with us and, together, she and Tom provided me with the most wonderful, nurturing care you can imagine. I call them both my earthly angels. My first check-up was one month after surgery. Being apprehensive would be an understatement. I was so scared my mouth felt like cotton and when the nurse checked my vital signs, my blood pressure went from normal to very elevated. I had already had an x-ray taken and I was afraid of the results. My doctor came into the exam room with x-ray in hand and a delightful grin on his face. My check-up was excellent. My lungs, due to walking a mile and pushing myself hard, had enlarged! My surgery scar was healing beautifully, and my lungs sounded almost clear. When we were leaving Tom askd if there were any tests I should have done between then and my six month check-up and my doctor said with confidence...."No, she's fine!" I am five months out of surgery and feeling stronger every day. But I know, from two very reliable sources, it will be at least twelve months before I can say I feel like my old self. I have backed off my walking some due to hot, humid weather, but I'm back playing golf and dancing. Am I apprehensive? If I said No, I'd be lying. My six month check-up is at the end of September and I do get extremely anxious when I think about it. Do I pray? Yes! I also stand on God's promise...."for I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wonds, saith the Lord!" This promise gives me strength and a positive attitude. Your web site [CancerGuide] is incredible! I fully believe things happen for a reason! Even my cancer brought me to the realization that I needed to change my life-style and attitude. I believe God has given me a second chance. Finding CancerGuide and reading the stories of others, that had/have cancer, has been very therapeutic for me. I now know my highs and lows are normal, that my fears are normal, also my anger. Being invited to tell my story has unleashed some of the negative feelings and fear. I'm grateful to have been given the opportunity to share my experience. Thank You. I went in for my 6 month check-up last September, and I was scared to death!! But, through the Grace of God, I was FINE! All tests came back negative!!! At the end of March 1998, I went back to MD Anderson for my 1 year check-up, and again, Praise the Lord, all the tests came back negative again!! I am feeling wonderful! My energy level is returning, my mental attitude is no longer consumed with my illness, and I again have a sense of well being about my life and future. I have been blessed, God has given me back my health, He has given me back my life!! It has now been 1-1/2 years since I was diagnosed with non-small cell lung cancer. I recently went to Houston, Texas, to MD Anderson, (where I had my surgery), for my regular 6 month check-up...it was GREAT!!!!! And, because of this excellent report, the Dr. now has me on a 1 year schedule...Praise The Lord!!!! I have said this many times, but I am going to repeat myself just the same, God has given me back my health, He has given me back my life!! I praise and give thanks to him daily!! Just got back from my 2-1/2 year check-up at MD Anderson. The report was excellent!!!!!!! When I asked Dr. Walsh if he thought I was OK he said........"I know you are!" Needless to say, I came back to San Antonio on cloud nine!! Each day is a gift! I'm grateful for each and every one of them! I just got back from MD Anderson and my check up was excellent!!!! It will be 4 years, this coming February, since my surgery. Praise the Lord!!! Since I quit smoking I have gained a considerable amount of weight. My focus today is to lose it!!!! Not by fad diets, but in a healthy, long term way. I feel good, in fact I feel great, and I will feel much, much better, and my breathing will be less labored, once the weight is off. Say a prayer for me........we all need support and prayers from friends, family and loved ones. You will continue to be in mine, as always. Can you believe it has been 5 years since my tumor was discovered? I had my check up just a matter of a month or so prior to the actual 5 year anniversary, and my Doctor, at MD Anderson, said it was close enough to count as 5 years and gave me a hug. When I asked if I was to come back in a year his comment was, "If you want to!!!" How's that for a report!!!!????? I hadn't been out but 7 months from my surgery when my husband and I took over the care of our granddaughter, whom at the time was just 2 years old. God blessed me in two ways back then, one; giving me back my life, the second, bringing this precious little girl into our lives. We now have legal custody of her and this little 45 pound person has enriched our lives more than I can say. I will be forever on my hands and knees giving thanks to our Father in Heaven for both blessings. I had my 6th year check up at MD Anderson in November and I couldn't be better! I have had so many people respond to "My Story", and it delights m, and fills my heart with Thanksgiving to be able to help those who contact me in some small measure. I truly have been blessed by the Lord in so many ways; a wonderful, loving husband, a precious granddaughter, that we are blessed to raise, and my health. I praise God every day for these wonderful blessings.HEALTH HISTORY
DECEMBER 1983
FEBRUARY 1996
TOTAL COMMITMENT
FEBRUARY 1997
BLESSING
SECOND OPINION
TEST RESULTS AND SURGERY
HOMEWARD BOUND AND RECOVERY
FIRST CHECK-UP
PRESENT TIME
THANK YOU
UPDATE!
UPDATE OCTOBER 1998: THE GOOD NEWS CONTINUES!
UPDATE OCTOBER 1999: AN EXCELLENT REPORT
UPDATE DECEMBER 2000: GREAT TO BE HERE!
UPDATE MARCH 2002: FIVE YEARS
UPDATE DECEMBER 30, 2002: BLESSED
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